December 27th Flurry of Posts

Hello,
So I want to start off by saying, I never intended this blog to become so personal. Especially not this quickly. Writing has always been a safe place for me to express myself. All of myself.

I have a lot of writing that has laid dormant for years. Unread by almost anyone. I usually only shared my writing with my best friends. I was afraid to be honest. I was afraid for people to see me.

Many of you reading this are strangers, some may be family. But what I started posting today is deeply personal. I know it will be uncomfortable for many of you to read.

But I’ve decided I don’t want to hide anymore. I am angry. I have been for a very long time. And as someone who has always viewed anger as bad, I have never let myself express it or act on it. I have always buried it and allowed it to turn into self hatred.

I know my anger is not unjustified. I know that it is okay for me to be angry. I know that I’m ready to let all of this go. To release all of this suffering and be free of it once and for all.

That’s ultimately why I decided to post all of this today (And more to come. today.) I want it out. I want people to read and understand and see me. All of me. Not just the parts of myself I allowed them to see.

I am done playing nice and being the quiet docile secret keeper who handles everything silently and alone.

For anyone who is new here, I do not plan to post deeply personal posts like this regularly. They might come up here or there as I write new ones, but this blog was created to be a creative outlet for me. To be a place of escapism for me to enjoy and have fun with my works of fiction. It was meant to be fantasy based.

Well, shit today is very real. It’s raw. It’s dark. And it’s unfiltered.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for enjoying the space I’ve created.

-K.M.